Hey Im Michelle. 15. Freshman. Mature minded. Lemme start by saying that my life hasnt and never will be easy. The past will always be apart of me but ive learned not to let it control me. To put it simply, Im making a new past by moving forward away from all yesterdays. I act like Im crazy and weird but thats only half of my personality. The other half is depressed and full of anger. Why? Thats personal and you dont need to know, yet. I dont trust people very easily mostly because Ive been stabbed in the back by so many people its not even funny. For me you have to earn my trust, and if you fuck it up thats your own fault. I hate people who try to out-do me, who are liers, who are fake, who pretend they have problems just to get attention, who talk shit, who judge. Theres very few people I hate to their core. Right now I can only thinnk of, Steve, my moms boyfriend. Music wise I used to be into hip-hop and rap but for a while now Ive gotten into rock, metal, and love songs. Im a pieces, thus Im very romantic and philosophical. Other peoples personal problems are easy for me to solve. I have a boyfriend, Daniel Jacob, and hes my dream come true. I couldnt have met a better more perfect guy than him. I am, for the most part, an ordinary girl with ordinary issues, what to wear, what song, school drama, but deep inside I have hidden problems that wage unseen wars inside me. I act like Im fine, wearing a fake smile that almost looks perfectly disguised from years of hiding the hurt, this smile is hard for most people to see through, but the ones that can are the closest and dearest to my heart. I act like a different person depending on who Im with. I eat when Im depressed. I love poems/poetry. I post alot of my own poems and lyrics from my fav songs. I used to cut and I have relapsed a few times. And I have scars. My mom made me use medication to rid the marks on the outside but nothing, nothing can take the pain that will forever linger in my un-spilled blood. Lastly, Im doing Tumblr to let out my feelings and release my pain and stress, not for you or her or him or the followers, only for me.. <3
Adding on to this info thingy about me.. I was a cutter.. and i have gotten the help i need and no longer feel the need to cut all the time.. and if i do.. i talk about it to my sister or my boyfriend.. I dont judge anyone so feel free to talk to me about anything.. Ill listen give advice or just chat.. Btw if you do know me.. dont bring anything about self-harming up with me or spread rumors about it because i will find out if it was you and that willl not be good.. x) oh and imma just keep adding on like this instead of rewriting this whole fucking thing..
Addition number two.. My blog is gonna start being all about love, music, and random ass stuff i think is funny or cute.. thank you for following.. <3 oh and if you start following me imma check out your blog and most likely start following you.. fyi.. :P